When I was younger, I never knew the meaning of true happiness, and even at present, I still wonder if I will have that happiness that everyone speaks of.
I wish someone would’ve told me what the world was truly capable of instead of filling me up with false hope of a world full of cupcakes and rainbows. I mean, surely you would think I would’ve learned my lesson for the true horrors of the world after having an encounter with the devil, yet I still held on to that thread of silver lining. Foolishly hoping that things would get better and that after a storm comes a rainbow, I desperately desired to see that bright multi coloured arc.
I didn’t have the best upbringing, considering I was born in a poor family, my morals were twisted, and the only thing I cared about was the love I had for my cousin, whom I considered a brother. I didn’t have access to the rest of the world, so I knew what I was told and saw on TV in shops. Life was not easy for me, food was scarce, and with reality so far away, I figured this was all my life was going to be like.
I was broken, uneducated, and possibly having kids at an early age, but I was taken away from that destructive path and set onto a brighter future with God’s grace. Things got better than worse than better, and a deafening calm passed before things went downhill before my very eyes, and I finally lost faith in humanity as I discovered the horrors of what we are capable of. I was so used to having a rich life that I wasn’t prepared when it was ripped away from me, and I ended up stumbling over my own feet and falling face first.
I was truly desperate for things to get better. When the clock struck 11:11, I would close my eyes tightly and make a wish I knew would never come true. However, now all I wish for is someone to have told me that wishes don’t come true unless you make them come true. In the end, no one can rescue you except yourself, which is something I came to later to understand the term, where there is a will, there’s a way.
One might think that their world is crumbling around them for a good reason, but what one oversees is the true strength of the mind. It is not easy to fight your demons when you’re fighting yourself in the process, so as I think back to when I was younger, I wish I never fought so hard with myself. If only I had accepted myself sooner, then many bad situations could have been avoided. If only I had begun loving myself sooner, then I would have achieved many things.
For one, I know if i convinced myself that i was worth it, I would have fought more for my own future and not left it in someone else’s hands to do as they please with it. The mind is indeed a powerful organ and one we take for granted every day. People tend to scroll past motivational pictures or images, not realising that change begins with the mind. You can’t simply change overnight, it takes time, and it all starts in your head by changing the way you think. Once you believe you are worthy, you wouldn’t believe what miracles you will achieve with that mindset, and the world will be your oyster. I didn’t have anyone to tell me that I was enough to achieve whatever I put my mind to, so I’m saying it now for whoever needs to hear it, YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU ARE WORTHY.
I don’t know how many people need to hear that, but it never hurts to hear it because it reminds us that there are people out there who still care for your well being and want what’s best for you.
So to the youth of tomorrow, don’t be so hard on yourself and remember that your mind is your greatest weapon and if used correctly and with the proper nourishment, you can reach the stars and beyond. Imagine if you woke up and told yourself that you are smart, gorgeous, talented or wanted every morning, your mind will automatically engrave that in your head, and before you know it, you will be those things you told yourself that you are.
People, mainly the youth, tend to forget how mighty their minds are. If they learn at a younger age the possibilities that they could achieve, the next generation will thrive beyond our imagination with the proper love and care. From what I’ve learned, you should fall in love with yourself before achieving anything else because it starts with you.
